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Damn, I just realized how long it has been since I posted.  I am totally slacking on this whole blogging thing.  Not much has been going on.  Life has been pretty quiet & normal.  J has cut back on drinking & the kids have been their normal bratty selves.  Not much drama here other than SIL & her issue of the day.

So it comes down to should I stay & be unhappy or leave & be unhappy?  I did leave for about 4 days but came back because the kids & I were miserable.  The issue is the drinking.  I can't stand him drinking every day.  It is getting worse not better &  he is an ass when he drinks.  He never used to drink much.  This started about 6 months ago.  I am ready to check his ass into a rehab.

What is the fascination between kids & tape?  I just don't get it.  My kids use an entire roll of tape & don't even tape anything.  What is it with staplers either for that matter?  I have to fix my stapler hundreds of times a day after Boo is done playing with it.  Is it just that they know they shouldn't play with it?  Is it the whole idea of connecting things together?  Who knows what goes through the mind of a 3 year old let alone a 1 year old.

We may be able to buy my grandmother's house.  I would love it.  It has a huge yard so the kids could play outside anytime they want.  It has a ton more space too.

I thought the whole point of having 2 vehicles was so I wouldn't get stuck at home with Boo & Roo while J works.  It wouldn't be so bad if we had a yard.  Hell, even if it was once in a while due to his vehicle breaking down would be fine but no asshat takes my van all the time because it uses less gas.  It is also the only vehicle safe for the kids to ride in.  We may be buying a house with at yard though.

J is now sick & can't watch the kids for my class.  I have to take them up to my mother-in-law's house.  I am getting really sick of the fact that he can help anyone out but he can't do a fucking thing for his wife & kids.  I have yoga tomorrow & he had better be here to watch the kids.

Today is J's first day off in a week.  We are supposed to spend it together.  He is out apartment hunting with his 8 month pregnant sister.  Her asshat boyfriend is too fucking lazy to get up & help.  She has no money & no job so I am not sure what the point of this hunt is.  All I know is we are NOT paying for her to get into a place.  I love her & have offered to watch her baby when she goes back to work but she needs to accept some responsibility.  She is 20 years old.  It is not our problem she got knocked up by a 16 year old loser who has a druggie mom.  Too bad, so sad.  I may sound harsh but this is just one more stop in the train wreck that is her life.  She surrounds herself with drama & wonders why she can't get a break.  I am ready to hurt someone.

So I was helping J straighten out an issue with his on-line poker site & happened to click on history.  The asshole has transfered $1195 into it in the last month.  That is almost two months rent.  We are behind on a lot of bills & just used tax money to catch most of the way up. I confronted him & told him I was putting a limit on his account.  The site has an area to put a weekly limit on so I did.  He can't change it for at least 7 days & then needs their approval to up it.  I have it set to e-mail me so he can't just approve it.  I hate having to treat him like a child but when he acts like one this is what he gets.  He is lucky I didn't kick his ass out.